What. A. Week. I am so exhausted in
every possible way. The week started with our car crapping out while
Jim was working overnight, without a phone, and RIGHT before the
holidays so we were kinda stuck till waiting on help from
mechanically inclined family members who obviously and understandably
had Christmas plans to take care of over dealing with our car. They
took a quick look when they towed it though and said it's either a
starter issue or something wrong with a rod in the engine, I don't
know shit about cars except that it's going to cost money either way,
so that's shitty. Family dinner plans were stressing me out a bit
too. Our families usually split Christmas Eve and Day pretty well but
this year everyone decided to do it all on the Eve and pretty much at
the same times which I'm sure was due to lack of communication on my
part. We're the only ones really running around from place to place
so next year, I'll definitely have to plan better and make sure the
families are on the same page too!
Anyhow, Christmas Eve arrived and miss
Olivia was just too excited, waking up muuuch to early. Payback for
doing the same to my parents I'm sure. Jim hadn't slept since the
22nd with work literally back to back at times. He was
extremely sick that day, probably from a combination of not sleeping,
eating crappy and doing hard labor on top of all that, but I could
tell he was just feeling awful and it made me feel really bad. I wish
I could take some of the load off of him, he works so hard for us. He
had to work that night too but we ended up not having a vehicle to
borrow like the night before which was incredibly stressful in
itself, but also understandable. His supervisor was aware of our car
issues and Jim kept in contact letting them know the situation that
evening until they decided it wasn't going to be possible for him to
make it that night even though he'd said if it were going to be an
issue, he WOULD find a way there. He had only ever called in maybe
once before, so I was actually relieved that he was able to take that
night to recover since he honestly was doing just horribly. They had
to come by to pick up a pressure washer, though, and when they left
Jim came in with news that just ruined Christmas for both of us...
They decided to let Jim go. My heart
just dropped into my stomach; we JUST got into our own house... I'm
TWO & A HALF WEEKS from giving birth... He NEVER ONCE has been
anything but on time, hard working and just fucking THERE for them
and this happens? I'm just sick writing it again. I feel like he got
the shit end of a stick that he shouldn't have had to have been
grabbing for in the first place. It's not fair. Thankfully, he has
started another job that is right up his alley and the side jobs he's
been working for an elderly man will help us coast until he's pulling
in money from the new “regular” job. I'm just so pissed and hurt
for him and our family. So angry that they'd do that to him on
Christmas Eve of all nights. I'm just happy that he's going to do
nothing but excel at his new job and will probably be running the
place in no time with his experience.
That news really killed our spirit this
year, but didn't hinder Olivia's Christmas Eve & Day from being
absolutely amazing! She was soooo freaking spoiled, got so many
adorable clothes and fun toys that I have to just take a moment to
thank my family and friends for all that they do. Seriously,
Christmas wouldn't have been nearly as amazing for O or for us
without each and every one of you who made her feel so special! She
was so excited to open that mountain of presents and loved each and
every thing she got. I was even more excited to watch her beautiful
face grin with joy every time she'd get another gift. I was feeling
pretty crappy about my own contributions to her pile, but you all
(especially you Gigi, you MADE Christmas!) pulled together a
fantastic holiday for all of us and I'm so so so thankful for you
guys. I wish I had more photos of her opening gifts and such, but it
was nice to be “present” to enjoy Christmas with her. I love that
little girl so much!
Friday, I had another doctors
appointment. I gained another couple pounds bringin my total weight
gain to 10lbs over my prepregnancy weight. I also had the Group B
Strep test which, for anyone who's been there and done that knows is
just THE most awkward thing in the world lol. I'm just happy I'll be
done having babies after this kid, I mean, you don't want much of a
continuing relationship with anyone who has swabbed your b-hole. I do
really enjoy the NST's though, I love seeing the heartbeat rise and
fall perfectly and adore the rhythmic beating that is very much my
favorite lullaby. There is only fifteen more days until she makes her
grand entrance into the world and that seems like no time at all. We
have everything ready for her arrival and will be going down to check
out the new maternity ward this coming weekend! I'm excited to see
what the fuss is about with this place and to see how they've
perfected the c-section experiences for us having to go that route. I
am just so damned excited and anxious and READY to have her here...
It's so close yet so far away!
For this weeks project life spread, I used a few Christmas Cheer Advent calendar cards from LostBumbleBee.blogspot.com. I removed the numbers since I wasn't going for an “advent” themed thanng, but other than that, here it is! I feel like I've lost everything I was going to finish with... So, just take care everyone and I hope you've had a wonderful holiday!
For this weeks project life spread, I used a few Christmas Cheer Advent calendar cards from LostBumbleBee.blogspot.com. I removed the numbers since I wasn't going for an “advent” themed thanng, but other than that, here it is! I feel like I've lost everything I was going to finish with... So, just take care everyone and I hope you've had a wonderful holiday!
