I haven't had a week like this in a
while. It's been one of much heartache, bellyache and headache. Ache
ache ache. The week started off with the loss of a beautiful woman,
person and soul... My grandma Mona went with the Lord too soon and
left all of us family missing her 'more than all the gobbles in the
world,' as she would say. That is a lot, since if you didn't know, a
gobble is a molecule times ten. It's been quite shocking, to say the
least, to lose someone without any warning whatsoever. Without having
spent the time I should have with her. Without being able to tell her
what she meant to me growing up and what she means to me now. Without
her ever being able to meet her fourth great grandchild, and
selfishly, that's what hurts me the most. I just hate that I was so
absent in the last few months of her life and hate that it took a
loss to realize I should have been doing so much more. Lord knows my
heart is with her though and I hope she knows that too. Grandma Mona
will always be such a huge part of mine, the other grand kids and of
course her childrens lives and I know we're all treasuring the
memories she helped us make throughout the years. I love you gramma
and will miss you till we can meet again. Please watch over this
crazy family of yours <3
The rest of the week seems to be just
as much of a blur as losing gramma, so much less important in the
grand scheme of things though. It seems silly to complain or to write
about it knowing there are much more pressing matters than our broken
car or my aches and pains. But, this is a weekly update so I will
just touch on what else happened this week! I went in to Labor &
Delivery again with contractions that are off the charts, but not
progressing anything at all. It's frustrating to be in pain for 'no
reason' it feels, but I know it's all helping to prepare for little
miss Evelyn's arrival. I have actually heard it's good for me to be
contracting and such even though I'm having a section, as it helps
the baby with breathing or getting the extra fluid out of them or
something along those lines. I'm such a ditz right now, I wouldn't be
able to tell ya, I just heard that I shouldn't be too upset to be
having these pains since they're all for a reason, even if that
reason isn't to help dilate or anything. I AM upset that I may be
having to wait until the 20th rather than the 13th
of this month to deliver though... I'm not getting too mad till I
speak with my actual doctor this next Thursday but if I have to wait
a whole 'nother week, I may just burst lol. I'm definitely in that
uncomfortable, almost intolerable point of pregnancy so take my
bitching with a grain of salt would ya?
Our car is officially fucked; we had it
taken in and apparently the cost to fix it is going to be more than
it would be to buy a cheaper car come tax time so that is the new
plan. It's really stressful to be car-less and so close to birth, but
thankfully we're able to borrow the in-laws cars for the most part
which has been extremely helpful. It just seems that when it rains it
REALLY pours, doesn't it?! Aside from the above, there really isn't
too much I can complain about. In fact, this week has also brought
some good through the crappiness and I cannot complain about that at
all. I am thankful to have rekindled some relationships that had
slipped away and that my family is just always there for me in time
of need. I am thankful to see that Evelyn is still doing so well and
am excited to begin my newest journey in the “photography world.”
I love every aspect of photography, but
I know that I'm not as strong in some areas as I am in others so I've
decided to focus on children and family portraiture. I love getting
real, adorable expressions from children and adore the look on a
mother's face when she sees that I was able to capture a moment that
will forever touch her (and my!) heart. I am now going to charge a
lot less than I'd originally planned to accommodate families on
tighter budgets, as I know how hard it can be to afford professional
photography even if it is truly valued and appreciated. I've also
planned to only take on a select number of sessions while offering
stylized 'monthly minis' for children to partake in at an even more
discounted price! Some of the minis planned for this year will be a
Valentine's Kissing Booth when I open in February, a Lemonade Stand
in the summer, a special Halloween set-up in the fall and so much
more throughout the year! It's going to be nice to get back out there
and to start creating again, it's cheesy to say, but it is a huge
passion of mine!
There isn't much new in the Life of
Livia... she's still a hyper little brat going a million miles an
hour and is still the light of my life giving me reasons to smile
every day! She's standing in her doorway as I finish this post,
telling me that it's not nighttime and she can't sleep. Well babe,
it's NAP time and you NEED to sleep haha. She has been very into
babies with all my friends and family popping em out before I'm able
to! Haha She adores her new baby doll she'd got for Christmas and has
been playing “big sister” since. It warms my heart to think of
how she's going to be with her real little sister. I truly cannot
wait for the moment that I get to see both of them together! Well, I
guess I should go manage that little brat of mine, or at least save
my soon-to-be-demolished can of pringles from her clutches! Haha so
without further ado here's my first week of Project 2014!
I was originally going to be using the
2014 Cards I'd made for my own week one, however after the gloominess
this past week has held, I figured the cards I found at Dunia Designs were more
appropriate. I also made a few cards of my own that I felt were
equally as appropriate, they include some photos I grabbed this past
December when it frosted over real nice. Check em out here! I would LOVE
LOVE LOVE to see any project life pages made with the cards I created
for 2014 though, so if you made your own, shoot me over a comment
with a link to your own blog or email me a photo at
chelsea.mailbox@yahoo.com
so I can see what you've all been up to! Take care everyone and
forgive me for my crappy posting lately, I will make it up soonish ;)
