Already two weeks of this year down
already and holy crap, that just seems too quick. I, of course, don't
have any complaints as I am still very anxiously awaiting miss
Evelyn...it just makes me realize that once she is here time is going
to continue to go probably even more quickly and both my little
babies will be growing too fast. Olivia is already growing like a
weed; it seems she's a bit taller, smarter and more funny each and
every day. She looked at me the other day with curiosity all over her
face. “Where's Riley?” She asked. I was kinda shocked at her
inquiry, we all talk about Riley all the time but it was just an odd
question for her to randomly ask. “She is in Heaven, baby.” I
said. “Where's Heaven?” She shot back. I told her that Heaven was
in the stars and the clouds and she pointed towards the sky. “Yep!”
I said, “Right up there! Riley is in the clouds and the stars and
she's always watching over you!” Olivia laughed, shook her head and
said “ohhhh Riley...” It just warmed my heart for her to be
talking about her big sister and broke my heart having to explain
Heaven to her too. I know she doesn't quite understand just yet, but
I'm thankful that by keeping Riley apart of our daily lives that
Olive will have a grasp on Heaven, God and the Angels watching over
her shortly enough.
Speaking of Heaven and the Angels, we
said our final goodbyes to a very special Angel this past Friday. As
mentioned in my previous post, my grandma passed away the first week
of January very suddenly and unexpectedly. It broke my heart to see
my mom and her sisters mourning for their mother, to see my grandpa
grieving for the love of his life and to see the rest of the crowd
dealing with their own feelings surrounding this loss. It was nice,
though, to see the family and friends that meant so much to my gramma
there to support each other and to honor her should-have-been-longer
life and it was amazing to see the smiles and hear the laughs that
came with each silly memory shared. The service itself was as
beautiful as it was emotional. It seemed the whole family had come
together to do something to contribute; whether it be heartfelt
letters that brought us all to tears, a fantastic video montage of
her life that definitely made everyone smile, memorial cards or just
the mere presences of those who loved her. It was definitely an
appropriate goodbye for a woman who meant so much to so many people.
We love you gramma <3
Other happenings in the life of
Chelsea... well... I'm still pregnant obviously haha. My back has
been hurting, my face, legs and ankles are pretty swollen and my
hyperemesis has come back with a vengeance. I haven't slept in months
it seems, I wake up constantly for one reason or another so any sleep
I DO get is so interrupted that it doesn't feel like I even got a
wink. I'm not ignorant, being a mother already, to think that I'm
going to be getting better sleep after the baby is born. I do,
however, look forward to whatever sleep I'm able to get post-baby to
be a BIT more comfortable since it surly can't get more uncomfortable
than it is now! And yes, I did knock on wood after writing that. My
doctor wasn't able to attend my latest appointment as he was
delivering another child (luckkkky woman) so I saw another doctor and
my nurse who is just wonderful. The NST was a great as ever, but
after discussing everything else realized that our c-section date has
definitely been changed. Sooo as of now, the new date is January
20th! I'm sure I can make it another week, everyone just
keep your fingers crossed and sharp objects outta my grasp ;)
Even though I was feeling incredibly
shitty this whole week, I was able to get out with my friend Alisha
who also has a great eye and huge passion for photography. She
grabbed some photos of me and le belly that I just adore! I really
wanted maternity photos as this is unquestionably my last pregnancy,
so I decided not to wait for a “good day” that may never come
this close to the end! They turned out awesome though and make me
smile... I'm really having the full pregnancy experience this time
around with a big ole belly, finally feeling real contractions,
waiting these long ass 40 weeks... It's nice and hectic at the same
time as the discomforts I was able to avoid my first two pregnancies
have found their way home this time around. Like my Project Life
spread says, though, I've decided to really embrace this last little
bit of time knowing that it's never going to happen again. I'm going
to treasure each and every little kick, movement and stabbing pain
knowing that my little girl is in there just thriving away. It is
rather hard for me to trust my body, my womb, that I feel let me down
so greatly before but I know that Evelyn is doing well and know that
Riley, Grandma and all our other beautiful angels up there are doing
their best to ensure she arrives as happy and healthy as I know she
will.
This weeks PL spread was made with
cards I found at Bee Tree Studios. I loved the colors and the 'vibe' these cards
have so you will most definitely see something like this again in the
future. My posting may be a bit hit and miss for a little longer, as
it has been these past few weeks, but after miss Evelyn is here I
promise that my posting consistency will become a little bit more...
consistent ;) Thanks for letting me beetch to y'all about my
pregnancy woes as well as letting me share a bit about my
grandmother. Here's to hoping for the rest of January to be a little
bit more easy going and for the rest of the year to just be fantastic
for us all.
